We're all dying.. everyday.. and the times are all in place- so you can feel free.

I got two new sketchbooks! one is for school, and the other is for myself. even tho i think i'll be carrying both around. One is really nice and intimidating.. i wrote on the first page and i want to tear it out already because i feel like it's not good enough haha.

i feel so gay having a blog.

(angst)





I'm going to go play nintendo DS.
Peace!

breaking up is hard to do!

Things have been much more foggy lately, and if you don't want something gay to read-STOP READING THIS! because my situation is pretty goddamn gay. Lately i've been keeping myself busy with all the wrong things. I really think im socially awkward. I put a picture up of brendan because there's been a lot of that floating through my head lately. I know it's bad and we shouldn't be talking.. but i can't help remembering how great it used to be. I know for the most part it was me mistreating him, and being a terrible person. I feel so guilty for that and i don't think it will ever leave me. I know people make mistakes but i just don't know how to live. I might be slightly mentally retarted-really. I wish I could have brendan, and friends in common, and no fights. And i could still keep my intellect.

Mental Wishlist:

- peace of mind (ha!)

- intellect

- balls to say no, or say what's needed to be said

- better grammar!!!

- a healthy relationship with brendan, I goddamn miss him so much

- more great friends

- SKILLZ wit da stuffz

So enough wishing, and dealing with what i've got. Hmm...

is something that is difficult for me....

I goddamn hate blogs.

wuv you

))<>((

I feel dumber everyday since i've had this blog, i think it's bad luck...
But, you're welcome to prove me wrong.
So please do.
And by "you" I mean Susan, this blog.

Susan has plans for one day, a much brighter day, to own this whole entire blogger site... she will conquer all blogs with her almight blog...single-handedly strike others out with her powerful words and wise sense of advice.

Life's a bitch, and then you die...

Why is everyone so serious?

I think that i'm an alien....
all your red's are my blue's