Things have been much more foggy lately, and if you don't want something gay to read-STOP READING THIS! because my situation is pretty goddamn gay. Lately i've been keeping myself busy with all the wrong things. I really think im socially awkward. I put a picture up of brendan because there's been a lot of that floating through my head lately. I know it's bad and we shouldn't be talking.. but i can't help remembering how great it used to be. I know for the most part it was me mistreating him, and being a terrible person. I feel so guilty for that and i don't think it will ever leave me. I know people make mistakes but i just don't know how to live. I might be slightly mentally retarted-really. I wish I could have brendan, and friends in common, and no fights. And i could still keep my intellect.
Mental Wishlist:
- peace of mind (ha!)
- intellect
- balls to say no, or say what's needed to be said
- better grammar!!!
- a healthy relationship with brendan, I goddamn miss him so much
- more great friends
- SKILLZ wit da stuffz
So enough wishing, and dealing with what i've got. Hmm...
is something that is difficult for me....
I goddamn hate blogs.
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